ED Warriors Know:

Yesterday, I instagrammed these:

ED Warriors know it’s a different ball game to say #fuckit and change habits. Mind goes all “butthinkofthechildren” aka BUT WHAT IF IT’S NOT THE SAME MACROS AS YOUR BERRY OMELETTE?!

What if it’s got more sugar?

Are apples going to make me lose control?

Do I deserve to sleep in and not cook my eggs?

I’m so damn glad I’m in a space where I can watch those thoughts, and then tell them to fuck off.

These muffins are good. I’ll eat two, thanks. 

With cheese and butter (ghee).

Recipe: from joyfulhealthyeats

CINNAMON APPLE MUFFINS #paleo #forthelikes: Apples have been a #fearfood ish kinda thing and no more are any #fucksgiven so bitchmademuffins #homade.

Recipes to me are like rules: made to be broken. I muddled round with this recipe, used almond and flax, added raisins, cashews, baking pow instead of soda bc #thatswhatihad. Turned out #prettynicelittlesaturday 👌🏻:

Ingredients

½ cup of coconut oil, melted

¼ cup of pure maple syrup

1 teaspoon of vanilla

6 eggs

½ cup of coconut flour

½ teaspoon of cinnamon

¼ teaspoon of baking soda

½ teaspoon of fine sea salt

1 apple -peeled (#nope) and diced (Mel’s modifications here bc don’t tell me one CUP apples – #theydontcomelikethat).

(a couple of) Recipes for my future cookbook

One liners, simple, modify as needed, use your own inner voice to customize:

Breakfasts:

img_7956Berry Omelette: heat fat in pan, scramble some eggs with flavours (vanilla extract, cinnamon, sea salt), pan that shit, sprinkle on superfoods (cocoa pow, maca, bee pollen, ginseng, etc), add some berries and fold over.  Top with milk, coconut/nut butter/nuts

Chia Pudding: (2-4T) chia seeds/milk (coconut is best, creamy one), flavour add (vanilla/almond extract/cinnamon/nutmeg)IMG_1479

  • Carrot cake (carrots, raisins, pecans/walnuts)
  • Cherry almond
  • Banana nut
  • Honey nut
  • Apple cinnamon nut
  • Orange hazelnut
  • Cocoa banana nut

Scrambled Eggs: avocado, tomato, onion, shrooms, cheese, coconut milk, spinach, kale, butter

Granola: make ahead: in a bowl: egg white, nuts of choice, butter/oil, dried fruits, coconut flakes, flavours (vanilla, cinnamon, sea salt always good, nutmeg, ginger)

Lunches:

Tadka Dal (red lentil curry):  cook 1 cup red lentils with one chopped tomato/ in pan saute onion, ginger, garlic, cumin seeds, curry leaves, cardamom pow, turmeric, salt pepper (or just curry pow) in ghee/coconut/butter. Add together in pot, simmer bit.

Chana Masala: cook 1 cup dried chickpeas/2 cans cooked chickpeas (don’t drain)/saute in butter/ghee/coconut: spice mix (ginger/garlic/turmeric/cumin seeds/mustard seeds/nutmeg-mace/pepper/chili peppers/cardamom/salt) and 1 chopped onion.  Add 1 chopped tomato.  Add chickpeas. {can forgo the spice mix for a pre-made chana masala spice mix…Winner’s has nice ones}

Egg Salad: mix hard boiled eggs with mayo, green onion, dijon mustard, salt, pepper, sriracha. Top a nice mix of greens/massaged kale/steamed green beans/black olives, tomatoes, cukes.  Dress with olive oil, avocado, balsamic, salt, pepper.  Top with nuts if need more energy.img_8119

Simple Fast Cabbage soup: make or use a load of bone broth in pot, add shredded cabbage, tamari, green onion, chopped carrots.  Top with coconut cream/sour cream/sliced avocado.  Add protein: shrimp/shredded chicken/tempeh/or scramble two eggs and drop in soup while whisking for egg drop soup.

Miso Soup:  one cup water, 1 T miso paste, shiraki/kelp/”zoodles”/yam, add shrimp/eggs/chicken.  Eat with side of veg and hummus (because the soup is not enough for lunch)

Miso Glazed Salmon: miso paste/mirin/grated ginger/sriracha – add salmon.  Marinate for 24-48 hours.  Bae (bake but bae bc shit’sgood) at 350 for 20 mins (pending on size of filet).photo (8)

Eggplant side:  dice an eggplant. Drizzle with olive oil, balsamic, italian herb mix.  Broil top rack for 10-15 mins.  YUM.

Whole Roasted bird with pumpkin coconut soup:  rub a chicken with butter, stuff a lemon, halved in cavity, add sage/rosemary/salt/pepper/whole head of garlic. Slice half a pumpkin (skin on) and add to roasting pan with one diced onion.  Toss in olive oil, salt, cinnamon, pepper.  Put chicken on pumpkin and roast for 1-2 hours (20mins/pound).  Soup: in bigassjar add pumpkin and onion, 1 can coconut milk (full-fat), chicken drippings, salt to taste, curry powder, pepper, sriracha.  Hand immersion-blend.  Done.img_8128

Wholefoods catering

I’m doing wholefoods private catering. I impulsively posted on Bunz, and got some interest. On one hand, yaddayadda it’s food-oriented so probs unideal for ED healing, but also it’s honestly a mind-break and a job that 1) feels good to be of service, keeps me busy, and 2) I actually get out of my mind and in a state of flow bc I get to express my creativity through r cope curating and flavour experimentation, and also 3) I make food that I’m challenging myself with

Long term, not ideal as a career choice of mine, but certainly good experience for my future retreat centre, and setting intentions to get bum to BC and up mountains and in lakes n stuff.

Also this no laptop thing is annoying- FWP, but phone autocorrects are hilarious I almost want to uncorrect them for the lols.

Here’s an example of some of the first orders:


The others left me too tired to take pics…le sigh.

Hire me? The food’s yum, right Cor? 

Ps have also restarted meditating and focusing on breath: these two vids are worth it:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Lb5L-VEm34&feature=share

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JeiEUMrPXkE&feature=share

Peanut Protein Sauce

I found a peanut protein powder (from Homesense) without 💩in it, so homade sauce for when working outside lunch not needing refrigeration.


Peanut Protein Sauce:

2 TBSP peanut Protein pow 

1-2 Tbsp sesame seeds

1 tbsp flaxseeds

Sriracha, soya, chicken stock (could use Pure Bone broth if you’re on the Best coast…or water, or almond/coconut milk)

Directions:

Dry toast seeds in pan. (I also toasted cumin seeds w it). Add PB pow, liquid. Mix. Yum.

I topped a salad w this and sesame oil dressing and peanuts.

Anxious

Up since 3am.

Hungry and anxious because I’m booked for camping Monday – Fri, meaning no training, out-of-comfort zone meals, letting go…reading, I’m so excited to rest but scared as well. I’m forcing it on myself. I know my body is in danger if I don’t listen to it, and I mean like- heart/stress fracture kind of scary.

I’ve got to pack and prepare and really don’t love this part. #Allthebeefjerky 

Might document #paleocamping … but also #fuckdiets so might not….will see.

Here’s my list for now- not bringing it all:

Corn on cob= challenge- even non-gmo but want to fire-pit n’ butter tha shi na mean? Also: anyone made “Spider hot-dogs”?

Anyone in Algonquin next week?

Here’s my big ass salad bc I’m hungry, lunch?  “OKAY, bodyyyy!” You want food? Okay!

What’s in here? What’s NOT in here! We got avo nooch hummus sesame seeds peanuts hummus and veg from garden (cukes came in!)


Also dl good music for the road, like this:

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=5HZYhcyHNo8 

Can I eat dinner at 4:30?

Yuuuuuup! 

Salmonskinisbae

Egg avo sauce: mooch, almond milk, smoked paprika, salt, Sriracha

Yam Chickpea Curry

Homade curry #bitchdidwha

Thanks, Ange (“oh she glows”…she “glistens”/glows/gluts…glutes?)

Sweet potato chickpea coconut curry


When I bought this from Sorauren Market, it was a challenge. It’s easier to buy these things than make them bc when I make them I skimp on shit freely (sub yam for like, cauli or some shit…) but bub DELIVERED and made this: with ghee bc #OGHEE

have to say…”oh she glows” is a rather irritating name for a blog (sorry Angela #imhonest), although so is “halfbakedunrealist” (SOMEONE HELP me WITH MY WEBSITE IVE BEEN TRYING TO CHANGE THIS ANNOYING NAME FOR YEARS). Buttttt woman has some real good recipes (minus so much soy) esp when trying to eat more carbs.

My house smells great, this curry will be yum. 

Also, instead of the chilli flakes, I used a green chilli that I snagged from the planter at Reunion Island #thanksAdam (againwiththehonesty) #willrepaywithbasilmojito

Didn’t want to do my ride. Legs like “wtf”…Did anyways. One day, I’ll learn.

Wif dem Konjac noodles and cilantro


Also came across two inspirations: Coach Tawnee (this article was amazing in depicting the internal dialogue around food with anorexia…bless) and Tina Muir (fucking fast AS chick and wicked woman, Hypothalamic Amenorrhea overcomer, inspiration, support).

There’s support out there and it feels so good to know I’m not alone.

And this: https://m.youtube.com/watch?ebc=ANyPxKpOVgaIzTAFb0MhpTEVYTRaKw1x0c8iwks-uhqj1-pT5VYkMhLoMdDG0Q3P4eHkWWTwbiRp2s6yuP7iGNsiI1uvgoX6iA&v=S77zUWqawag

Second Breakfast? Lunch?

#isittooearlyforlunch?

Nope.

Ghee- scrambled eggs, avo, jerky, salad


Has anyone read Hunger by Roxane Gay? I’m finishing it. Lots of similarities and lots of differences between under and overeating. Raw and real, but #shedidntreplytomytweet so….😉#noteveryauthorisascoolasRochelleBilow 
What’re you hungry for?

Me? My own love 

Rajasic Restless Rest

Energy release via creative outlet in passing my rest day: culinary blending of le shits

Beef jerky, coconut chips, sundried tomato

Salad topper #veganjustkidding


Beretta farms beef jerky and toasted coconut yum.

Rest is hard but good #thatswhatshesaid

Fear food: ground beef

Scary because it’s all marbled n stuff…whatever though, letting go feels better. #imnocoward

Shanks Rowe Farms for the good sourced, hormone-free 🐄

I made dis…



Literally: beef, olive oil, shallots, taco sauce 

I added stuff: avo, konjac noodles, portobello, salad.

#veganjustkidding 

#teamgetmelsperiodback