- Better health
- Stronger body
And I’ve been focusing on these. I am realizing that by focusing on what I want, I’m living in a state of being insufficient as I am.
Truth is, I’m, we’re, already complete, right now. When I look at the list of what I want and where I want to go, I’m living in this state, this feeling of lack. I’m living in a state of non-presence (either pining for what I had, or looking forward into the future for what I want). This is taking away the power of my now.
I am learning to prioritize how I want to feel. Instead of taking on the feelings of; lack, insufficient, sick, weak, lonely, hurt, useless, I look to feel what Danielle Laporte calls “core desired feelings”.
When I have my heart set on feelings that I want to embody, I’ll unblock myself from the “lack, insufficient, sick, weak, lonely, hurt, useless” that is serving to keep me exactly where I am at: a state of tired, sleepy, weak, lost.
So, my core desired feels:
I much prefer this list.
I feel that these emotions will flow into the goals I wrote above, but the feelings before that have no tie to this. It’s like the quote that stripped me of my coping through Bulimia;
You can’t hate yourself into a version of you that you can love.
Honestly, this is Cognitive Behavioural Therapy stuff. I feel that the way to bring this shift into the body is by using body-awareness sensation cues. I am going to practice the cultivation of these feelings in meditation. I want to see where in my body I feel peace. I know anger pretty well – it’s in my solar plexus and throat. I wonder if peace is in my lower belly, all cozy like a kitten sitting on my lap. I wonder if funny is like a shoulder massage. etcetcetc. Feel me?
And so it is.
Hey, what’s your list? Please share, it’s (you’re) worth it: