2:57AM Le Hungry

Sometimes hunger doesn’t come in pangs of stomach notifications, like waking up with a headache and some intuition saying “eat”. I went to bed after being too tired to expend the honestly exhausting energy #tuningin to see if I was full after eating a snack. Maybe this is where the core cause is #lettinggo of the need to be “perfectly” sated. I honestly think I was so tired of the mind games, paired with being end-of-day-wiped, that I was just in a #fuckit place and hit the pillow, not feeling like living up to my own standards of eating “just right”.

That was another form of escapist-numbing, I now see. And also of rubbish high standards of perfectionist ways. Well, I’m eating now, and it’s a learning lesson that “perfect” is bullshit. And even in this imperfection there’s beauty of self-discovery and awareness.

Awareness is key.

Also: yes, I genuinely enjoy Brussels sprouts. #maybethisiswhyimsingle

ED Warriors Know:

Yesterday, I instagrammed these:

ED Warriors know it’s a different ball game to say #fuckit and change habits. Mind goes all “butthinkofthechildren” aka BUT WHAT IF IT’S NOT THE SAME MACROS AS YOUR BERRY OMELETTE?!

What if it’s got more sugar?

Are apples going to make me lose control?

Do I deserve to sleep in and not cook my eggs?

I’m so damn glad I’m in a space where I can watch those thoughts, and then tell them to fuck off.

These muffins are good. I’ll eat two, thanks. 

With cheese and butter (ghee).

Recipe: from joyfulhealthyeats

CINNAMON APPLE MUFFINS #paleo #forthelikes: Apples have been a #fearfood ish kinda thing and no more are any #fucksgiven so bitchmademuffins #homade.

Recipes to me are like rules: made to be broken. I muddled round with this recipe, used almond and flax, added raisins, cashews, baking pow instead of soda bc #thatswhatihad. Turned out #prettynicelittlesaturday 👌🏻:

Ingredients

½ cup of coconut oil, melted

¼ cup of pure maple syrup

1 teaspoon of vanilla

6 eggs

½ cup of coconut flour

½ teaspoon of cinnamon

¼ teaspoon of baking soda

½ teaspoon of fine sea salt

1 apple -peeled (#nope) and diced (Mel’s modifications here bc don’t tell me one CUP apples – #theydontcomelikethat).

E-Booklet “Fuck Diets” News

I’m almost finished my ebook weee! Available soon, honestly I’m enjoying writing this, and aware that I’ve got to model the shit out of it. It’s helping me catch myself when I feel like I’m slipping.

More details coming but for now, check the title: Fuck Diets: 10 Tips to Stress less, and Weigh Healthy

 On that note:

Listen to yourself about what to eat

Source: Dr. Libby, Instagram


Paleo? 

Vegan?

Keto?

LCHF?

HCLF?

Gluten-free?

Slow-carb?

THIS is what I want to spread as a Holistic Nutritionist: less WHAT to eat, more quieting and tuning out in. Stop listening to outsiders about what to eat: when you were a kid, you knew what to eat to feel good. You had an inner impulse that was loud and clear and unhindered by confusion, stress, coping. 

Lets go there again. Ya!

This vid is well worth the watch👌🏻

Shit…I’m Becoming one of those “self-love” People…


I feel myself turning into one of those “self-love” people…terrifying bc:

1. ummm…because “those self-love-people”…#refertohomeboyJPSears

2. There are so many out there already. Like Danielle Laporte.

3. It’s not that Danielle Laporte’s not cool…but my shit’s just more John Blaze then that…

4. They use terms like: love-warrior…”divine”, “goddess”, “radical”(in the non-hippie-dude-way), “blissful”(oops), “sanctuary”…iunnoyouknow?

In other important news, a guest blog post is coming today from a Bulimia and Anorexia survivor I had the pleasure of meeting. This feels so cool to share and feel the awareness spread that once again, I (nor you) am never damn alone, as often as I feel it, shit, that’s false as hell!

A Practicing Practitioner

Because I’m human too. I’m nutritionally counselling. I’m sharing what worked for me. I’m not waiting “until”. I’m rawly honest and I’m wise and fiercely faithful of the concept “Orenda”, and I’m updating my website to express my story and approach.

Here’s one of the ways I’m sharing my shit: (to a recent client):


We’re all learning, right? We’re all doing this for the first time, aren’t we?

 

(a couple of) Recipes for my future cookbook

One liners, simple, modify as needed, use your own inner voice to customize:

Breakfasts:

img_7956Berry Omelette: heat fat in pan, scramble some eggs with flavours (vanilla extract, cinnamon, sea salt), pan that shit, sprinkle on superfoods (cocoa pow, maca, bee pollen, ginseng, etc), add some berries and fold over.  Top with milk, coconut/nut butter/nuts

Chia Pudding: (2-4T) chia seeds/milk (coconut is best, creamy one), flavour add (vanilla/almond extract/cinnamon/nutmeg)IMG_1479

  • Carrot cake (carrots, raisins, pecans/walnuts)
  • Cherry almond
  • Banana nut
  • Honey nut
  • Apple cinnamon nut
  • Orange hazelnut
  • Cocoa banana nut

Scrambled Eggs: avocado, tomato, onion, shrooms, cheese, coconut milk, spinach, kale, butter

Granola: make ahead: in a bowl: egg white, nuts of choice, butter/oil, dried fruits, coconut flakes, flavours (vanilla, cinnamon, sea salt always good, nutmeg, ginger)

Lunches:

Tadka Dal (red lentil curry):  cook 1 cup red lentils with one chopped tomato/ in pan saute onion, ginger, garlic, cumin seeds, curry leaves, cardamom pow, turmeric, salt pepper (or just curry pow) in ghee/coconut/butter. Add together in pot, simmer bit.

Chana Masala: cook 1 cup dried chickpeas/2 cans cooked chickpeas (don’t drain)/saute in butter/ghee/coconut: spice mix (ginger/garlic/turmeric/cumin seeds/mustard seeds/nutmeg-mace/pepper/chili peppers/cardamom/salt) and 1 chopped onion.  Add 1 chopped tomato.  Add chickpeas. {can forgo the spice mix for a pre-made chana masala spice mix…Winner’s has nice ones}

Egg Salad: mix hard boiled eggs with mayo, green onion, dijon mustard, salt, pepper, sriracha. Top a nice mix of greens/massaged kale/steamed green beans/black olives, tomatoes, cukes.  Dress with olive oil, avocado, balsamic, salt, pepper.  Top with nuts if need more energy.img_8119

Simple Fast Cabbage soup: make or use a load of bone broth in pot, add shredded cabbage, tamari, green onion, chopped carrots.  Top with coconut cream/sour cream/sliced avocado.  Add protein: shrimp/shredded chicken/tempeh/or scramble two eggs and drop in soup while whisking for egg drop soup.

Miso Soup:  one cup water, 1 T miso paste, shiraki/kelp/”zoodles”/yam, add shrimp/eggs/chicken.  Eat with side of veg and hummus (because the soup is not enough for lunch)

Miso Glazed Salmon: miso paste/mirin/grated ginger/sriracha – add salmon.  Marinate for 24-48 hours.  Bae (bake but bae bc shit’sgood) at 350 for 20 mins (pending on size of filet).photo (8)

Eggplant side:  dice an eggplant. Drizzle with olive oil, balsamic, italian herb mix.  Broil top rack for 10-15 mins.  YUM.

Whole Roasted bird with pumpkin coconut soup:  rub a chicken with butter, stuff a lemon, halved in cavity, add sage/rosemary/salt/pepper/whole head of garlic. Slice half a pumpkin (skin on) and add to roasting pan with one diced onion.  Toss in olive oil, salt, cinnamon, pepper.  Put chicken on pumpkin and roast for 1-2 hours (20mins/pound).  Soup: in bigassjar add pumpkin and onion, 1 can coconut milk (full-fat), chicken drippings, salt to taste, curry powder, pepper, sriracha.  Hand immersion-blend.  Done.img_8128

Tummy

I am bloated. I ate frozen and thawed and refrozen and rethawed food yesterday…Oops. Paired with stress, anxiety, feels, food, gas, life, digesting, I’m bloated.

Yesterday after dinner when I expressed this poop to my roommate she said it’s so damn normal. Everyone’s tum goes out after food, gas forms, and that’s how food moves through the body for processing. 

But also, the gut is the second brain. I know mine’s been abused, and I’m learning to love it. I’m using the “Ed” voice thing (which I equate to “id”/”ego”- bc the whole “ed” thing doesn’t sit right w me making me feel like I’m externally blaming shit instead of believing in my own prowess to heal, bc this “ed” thing- although I differentiate my soul-speak from it- it is a part of me. But it’s a part of me like my mind akin to my soul, and I don’t have to listen to it’s verbatim and lack of humour…it’s like dry humour to my hilarious puns and memes🤸🏼‍♂️)…

So. Tum’s talking via bloat- it’s relative always and it doesn’t look like much in the pic but dis bitch uncomfy.  I’m posting bc I’m vulnerable here. I’m generally uncomfy with the tum, and especially with bloating bc it makes me feel bigger than I am. Bloating confuses hunger signals. It’s not nice. I am eating dinner anyways. I think back when I had bulimia, I would suppress the feelings of hunger with bloat- and restrict till starvation hit and then boom i was in binge mode. I am mechanically eating now bc there’s some feelings inside me telling me it’s time to eat. Can’t explain in words and don’t have to. I am learning to trust myself and my inner intuition. I’m trusting that as I refuel and retrain my body how to eat, it’ll get better.

So I’m going now to eat blood sausage.

✌🏻