Hear me out.
I overheard a girl talking to her two friends on the way down from the Chief a couple of days ago saying:
“I’m really trying to be more positive in life and look at the bright side of things.”
There were excited mini-cheers of endearment and support following from her buds.
Which is cool n stuff…truly, if you’re at a place in your life where equanimity floods your daily conduct, and Muggle things like getting eggshells out of your scramble leaves you unphased, or running through the pissing rain has you all “extra shower”, or your roommate’s bass from their music upstairs (why is it ever OK to listen to Pit Bull okhmmm?) then (*cough cough Buddha) you’ve past some lifetimes and #jahbless. But this is a case for being Human and understanding that the only way out is through.
Enter the concept: spiritual bypassing. Basically, this is when we try to act as if we’re already where we want to be in life, without taking the truck through shit to get there.
This is not a negative striving though, truly, it’s actually pretty damn (not darn, never darn, sweet Jesus) beautiful. The fact that we really genuinely want to be the best people we can be as quickly as possible is lovely. The problem is that the very experience of human states and accepting our annoying complaints without superimposing rainbows and butterflies into our life is what leads eventually to that learned lesson in life. When we go through the acceptance, the ability to let go of Life’s little annoyances I think eventually lets go of us. Because the thing is, maybe we can teach ourselves to plaster a smile on our faces whenever we feel a frown, and conditionally impose the stimulus-response Pavlovian science on our human habits, but for how long? How long before we see a puppy shit on our newly planted vegetable garden and just lose it? Before Pit Pull comes on in the checkout line when we’re hangry and our blood curls and we take it out on a loved one when we get home after seeing that dinner’s not prepared as was promised?
My point is that I believe if we are on the path to self-betterment, then naturally we will want to achieve what we aspire towards. Of course, ideally, I really wish that I wouldn’t get to frustrated when my gut is fucked up (STILL) from antibiotics and I’m shitting like 10x/day. Of course maybe you don’t want to feel anger running through you when you hear yet another vegan rave about cashew cheese or zoodles (is that just me?), or when your latte tastes burnt, or your yoga class is cancelled, or or or or…but fuck, we feel those things though, don’t we? Is it really our faults we came to this earth, learned our behaviours, got shit passed down from neurological pathways and evolutionary tendencies for survival of the fittest such that our minds are wired to be little pieces of shit?
So, I stopped the group of friends on they way down and 1.5x podcast speeded through the above to them (thanks for not telling me to fuck-off), and they were like “Whoa, true, hey?”
I honestly trust that there’s a process we go through to get to where we want to be, how we want to feel.
I don’t let go of my thoughts. I meet them with understanding, and then my thoughts let go of me.
– Byron Katie
So, I’m choosing to acknowledge the suck. I choose to accept that I feel pissed right the fuck off sometimes, and others, maybe pissed a little the merde ouf. Either way, I feel it, name it (powerful practice to name the emotion–creates a distance from living it, and observing it. With this space, we can see it pass through us and not embody us), accept it. That’s step one.
I think if I tried to just press fast-forward, I would end up exploding and throughout the process, most likely indulge in more coping mechanisms to dissipate the excess “scabbing” that takes place to bottle-neck the emotions.
e-motion: energy in motion.
A.K.A. that shit has gotta move. Somewhere. So avoiding it just traps it. Facing it is bloody bold and courageous. Feeling the feeling, and acknowledging it is both empowering and admirable. If we simply express the anger without acknowledging it, then we are no more awake that were we to superimpose happiness on shitty situation. So the golden formula is:
Feeling + Acknowledging = Growth
The whole point of spirituality is connecting more deeply with ourselves. And what better way than to let ourselves feel. After all, truly, our soul genuinely is love, and with compassionate understanding, the shit will eventually brush off of us, and with gentle insight and inquiry into our feelings, we’ll uncover what’s beneath them.
Something like that.
Namaste, mother lovers.
Ps. If you haven’t yet listened to Iliza Shlesinger saythatfivetimesfast then you have so much room for activities!