Letting go of what you want to get it

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Jenn Shelton is an incredible human being…I don’t know if this is illegal or not posting this picture.  Sue me? (please don’t)

I’m not an airy mindfulness yogi kinda feather-waving somefingsomefing.

I believe in the law of attraction, and I enjoy quality mindfulness-awareness quotes and figures.  Abraham Hicks is one. I don’t understand fully the whole idea of him/her (?) being a “medium”, or what “it” (?) really is…but I know that I find this video both witty, funny, and damn powerful.  The whole idea is pretty much founded upon this concept brilliantly quoted by “guru” (?) Hedberg:

I’m tired of following my dreams man, I’m just going to ask em where they’re heading and hook up with them later.

Check this out, it’s worth it: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NSGqY7fmMOc

It’s the idea that when we come from a place of wanting, we’re literally living in a space of lack.  We’re pretty much in a waiting game of life, tiptoeing in hesitation for what we believe will save us to a happy life.  This video talks about letting go of the chasing for a little bit, and believing we can be happy exactly where we are.  In this space, we’re actually feeling so much better, that we unblock ourselves from our own barriers from getting what we are wanting in the first place.  I totally get this.  I’m learning to be happy with a bloated belly, as well as after a good poop #feelme?

Life is what happens when we’re busy making other plans.  I’d prefer to feel good than to feel pain while waiting for some kind of self-made utopia in my mind that I’ll be happy when_______________.

Namasthe.

Letting Go

Usually, I don’t do this shit: ingredients really are “non-food” items…

“Crab” salad: you know that “flavoured pollock” 💩

So much poop in here, solittlecare

But you know what? #yolo and #lettinggo feels better.


Everything in moderation, even moderation is good. If this is my “treat”, then so be it. I really do enjoy this salad, and I really don’t have very much at all bc my body doesn’t like too much (probs knows it has yick stuff in der).

I like a little bit, life’s spicy when you follow your intuition.

#TEAMGETMELSPERIODBACK

Don’t Think, Just Do

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I’m posting this vid pretty vulnerably…man, I know I’m thin, but it’s hard to feel skinny.  I can feel unwell, but to feel skinny?  That’s different.  Seeing this video, I can see myself, and damn, I’m too skinny 😦  I don’t like it!

Yesterday, I had a wicked conversation with my neighbour about how she overcame similar struggles with Anorexia.  She pinned it down to:

  • Awareness
  • Belonging (working outdoors at a forestry camp one summer)
  • Coping skills for anxiety (decreasing anxious thought patterns)

She expressed the liberation she found when she realized how fleeting our times on this earth is, as she observed life and death around her, and she was sick of being so bony and drained, all the time.  She needed energy for the job outside, and she didn’t feel good at her weight.  The endless cycle of restriction, compulsive exercising, and chronically high cortisol led her to say “I’ve had enough!” and so, she let go.

It’s a blessing whenever I can gain insight from the journey of people, making me feel not alone in this.  It’s so easy to feel alone.  But I’m totally not, and everyone is a warrior, in some way or another.

Trucking on, see you when I have a bum.

 

In reply to Jill from “A Case Of The Jills” https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCLJC… re: getting your period back after H.A., by exercising less and eating more. This vid is about the monkey mind of someone with an eating disorder and how to silence the voices that started the problem in the beginning. (Healing the “SOURCE” is a totally different ball game).