“I’m an MD/RHN/RN, here’s what I eat in a day”

I call this bullshit.

In a world already so disconnected from ourselves, these tempting motives to “solve our own routine conundrum” serve as confusing AF.  It’s like stevia: sweet, but the body is like “well shit, can I eat more now because that was calorie-free?” (you know? How many times have you tried to “trick” your body into thinking it’s satiated, and then the #headinfridge nighttime syndrome hits? And, sweetheart, when you say “I couldn’t help it”, that is OK.  It’s not lack of willpower.  It’s physiology, and it’s OK.)

Confusion.  Tempting at first, but also like the Finnish education system: it works for them, but you can’t take Des Linden’s stride, put her in a pool, and expect a Phelps #nahmean?

This is why I think “diets” in their very essence are dangerous to fall into.  Rules, rules rules rules, stress me out, and also calm parts of me.  It is so nice to think of a specific way of doing things that leads to health and is relatively simple to emulate.  But that’s the easy way out.  The way that calms the overwhelmed and fearful parts of us that are at a loss of what to do, and then just doesn’t serve the soul part that is all like “but listen to me, I know what’s best for Me!”

Like, side-note.  Is it just me, or is Intermittent Fasting the way of like 90% of Tinder dates right now?

Intermittent Fasting: can certainly serve some people, at some times.  But I’m fearful of the idea that it enables addiction.

I feel like I am straight up addicted to sensation from controlling all aspects of nourishment from food.  I’m using Food control and restriction and “allowing” bits of treats as a way to fuel my nourishment needs that I’m lacking in other aspects of my life.

Similarly, like Maslow’s Hierarchy of needs, I am keeping myself stuck in the lower pyramid

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This blah blah blah goes back to me not feeling “safe” in the world so I’m keeping myself “safe” #traumashit through physiological preoccupation.

Blah blah blah.

On this level, it’s simply a way to keep myself outside of myself.  Which is why it’s so tempting to look more outside of Me at what other people are doing, what helps them, the scared parts of myself think “Let’s do that!”  While inspiration is great, what if by listening in, checking in, the answers come to me.  What if by creating pathways of outer-dependency, I disconnect myself from the umbilical cord that’s like the cup-string telephone to the soul, (remember?)

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Now back to the really somehow fascinating phenomenon that is looking at what people are eating on social media.  Enter hashtags:

#WIAW
#Paleo
#Keto
#IF
#cleaneats
#cheatday
#ifitfitsmymacros

ETCETCETC.

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#amiright?  What about “Fear of Finished Meal Syndrome”?  Do the RHN’s, RN’s, RD’s, MD’s get this, too?  (Do hooman’s breathe?)

Maybe we think that the hidden mind’s of these people are pristine such that they have not the pains we have?  Maybe they poop better?  Like,

“hey, she’s got toned-ass arms, her diet must be soooo perfect!! I will get arms and poops clean as hers if I eat exactly what she eats!”

Bullshit.

But also,  compassionate bullshit.  I hear this, I also feel this.  But I know my soul is calling out this human ego temptation because #slowcarb #fatfree #LCHF #vegan etcetcetc seems easy, but doesn’t work.  It only worked for me to get me more aware of the need to connect with myself more deeply.  So in this way, and in celebrating the idea that “the only way out is through”, I’m grateful.

I’ve been on a ride through Anorexia Nervosa, Bulimia (no blaming here, but the “cheat day” from Tim Ferriss’s (sexiest bald man I know) #4HourBody fuckkked me up hard), Vegetarianism, Paleo, Anxiety, and has truly winded my path around like a rollercoaster.  Right now, my gut is speaking to me.  The powerful, resilient body perseveres through all the confusion, which is so damn beautiful.  Throughout all the ignoring, all the pain, all the anxiety, the body is here.  Not without scars, inside and outside, but it’s here.  It’s always here.  That’s what we’re born with.  We’re actually born with exactly all we need to thrive on this earth.

Similar to plants in nature, they use whatever is available near them at the time, in order to survive.  Each plant uses its own individual programming to absorb from the Earth what it possibly can to life the longest and most robust life.  Maybe a plant is healthier in different soils, but the internal ability for it to hear its needs are just that: internal.  So, an onion will need different things than it’s tomato neighbour.  Likewise, one onion might need different things than the onion beside it, that is closer to the cuke which changes its constituency.

So fuck, please, be wary of outside noise.  Just because an MD eats avo-toast erryday, doesn’t mean it’ll give you better poops.  I mean, it may; that shit’s great.  But listen in.  Get inspired, and then take the language outside and translate it into your own Mother Tongue for your individually resplendent body.  And also, listen to the whispers coming from your SOUL!

Fuck, it’s beautiful (thank you).

Love,
Mel

ED Warriors Know:

Yesterday, I instagrammed these:

ED Warriors know it’s a different ball game to say #fuckit and change habits. Mind goes all “butthinkofthechildren” aka BUT WHAT IF IT’S NOT THE SAME MACROS AS YOUR BERRY OMELETTE?!

What if it’s got more sugar?

Are apples going to make me lose control?

Do I deserve to sleep in and not cook my eggs?

I’m so damn glad I’m in a space where I can watch those thoughts, and then tell them to fuck off.

These muffins are good. I’ll eat two, thanks. 

With cheese and butter (ghee).

Recipe: from joyfulhealthyeats

CINNAMON APPLE MUFFINS #paleo #forthelikes: Apples have been a #fearfood ish kinda thing and no more are any #fucksgiven so bitchmademuffins #homade.

Recipes to me are like rules: made to be broken. I muddled round with this recipe, used almond and flax, added raisins, cashews, baking pow instead of soda bc #thatswhatihad. Turned out #prettynicelittlesaturday 👌🏻:

Ingredients

½ cup of coconut oil, melted

¼ cup of pure maple syrup

1 teaspoon of vanilla

6 eggs

½ cup of coconut flour

½ teaspoon of cinnamon

¼ teaspoon of baking soda

½ teaspoon of fine sea salt

1 apple -peeled (#nope) and diced (Mel’s modifications here bc don’t tell me one CUP apples – #theydontcomelikethat).

Listen to yourself about what to eat

Source: Dr. Libby, Instagram


Paleo? 

Vegan?

Keto?

LCHF?

HCLF?

Gluten-free?

Slow-carb?

THIS is what I want to spread as a Holistic Nutritionist: less WHAT to eat, more quieting and tuning out in. Stop listening to outsiders about what to eat: when you were a kid, you knew what to eat to feel good. You had an inner impulse that was loud and clear and unhindered by confusion, stress, coping. 

Lets go there again. Ya!

This vid is well worth the watch👌🏻

(a couple of) Recipes for my future cookbook

One liners, simple, modify as needed, use your own inner voice to customize:

Breakfasts:

img_7956Berry Omelette: heat fat in pan, scramble some eggs with flavours (vanilla extract, cinnamon, sea salt), pan that shit, sprinkle on superfoods (cocoa pow, maca, bee pollen, ginseng, etc), add some berries and fold over.  Top with milk, coconut/nut butter/nuts

Chia Pudding: (2-4T) chia seeds/milk (coconut is best, creamy one), flavour add (vanilla/almond extract/cinnamon/nutmeg)IMG_1479

  • Carrot cake (carrots, raisins, pecans/walnuts)
  • Cherry almond
  • Banana nut
  • Honey nut
  • Apple cinnamon nut
  • Orange hazelnut
  • Cocoa banana nut

Scrambled Eggs: avocado, tomato, onion, shrooms, cheese, coconut milk, spinach, kale, butter

Granola: make ahead: in a bowl: egg white, nuts of choice, butter/oil, dried fruits, coconut flakes, flavours (vanilla, cinnamon, sea salt always good, nutmeg, ginger)

Lunches:

Tadka Dal (red lentil curry):  cook 1 cup red lentils with one chopped tomato/ in pan saute onion, ginger, garlic, cumin seeds, curry leaves, cardamom pow, turmeric, salt pepper (or just curry pow) in ghee/coconut/butter. Add together in pot, simmer bit.

Chana Masala: cook 1 cup dried chickpeas/2 cans cooked chickpeas (don’t drain)/saute in butter/ghee/coconut: spice mix (ginger/garlic/turmeric/cumin seeds/mustard seeds/nutmeg-mace/pepper/chili peppers/cardamom/salt) and 1 chopped onion.  Add 1 chopped tomato.  Add chickpeas. {can forgo the spice mix for a pre-made chana masala spice mix…Winner’s has nice ones}

Egg Salad: mix hard boiled eggs with mayo, green onion, dijon mustard, salt, pepper, sriracha. Top a nice mix of greens/massaged kale/steamed green beans/black olives, tomatoes, cukes.  Dress with olive oil, avocado, balsamic, salt, pepper.  Top with nuts if need more energy.img_8119

Simple Fast Cabbage soup: make or use a load of bone broth in pot, add shredded cabbage, tamari, green onion, chopped carrots.  Top with coconut cream/sour cream/sliced avocado.  Add protein: shrimp/shredded chicken/tempeh/or scramble two eggs and drop in soup while whisking for egg drop soup.

Miso Soup:  one cup water, 1 T miso paste, shiraki/kelp/”zoodles”/yam, add shrimp/eggs/chicken.  Eat with side of veg and hummus (because the soup is not enough for lunch)

Miso Glazed Salmon: miso paste/mirin/grated ginger/sriracha – add salmon.  Marinate for 24-48 hours.  Bae (bake but bae bc shit’sgood) at 350 for 20 mins (pending on size of filet).photo (8)

Eggplant side:  dice an eggplant. Drizzle with olive oil, balsamic, italian herb mix.  Broil top rack for 10-15 mins.  YUM.

Whole Roasted bird with pumpkin coconut soup:  rub a chicken with butter, stuff a lemon, halved in cavity, add sage/rosemary/salt/pepper/whole head of garlic. Slice half a pumpkin (skin on) and add to roasting pan with one diced onion.  Toss in olive oil, salt, cinnamon, pepper.  Put chicken on pumpkin and roast for 1-2 hours (20mins/pound).  Soup: in bigassjar add pumpkin and onion, 1 can coconut milk (full-fat), chicken drippings, salt to taste, curry powder, pepper, sriracha.  Hand immersion-blend.  Done.img_8128

Vegans, AVERTYOUREYES


Short update:

1. Rest days are getting easier

2. I’m letting myself feel and listening to cravings

3. Totally loving all things fatty-esp animal and fish: blood sausage, pork rind, salmon skin, man even chicken skin. I thought I’d be craving carbs, but hey, fat is great!

4. The client whose order I did yesterday texted me this: “Had a great dinner when I got home. Everything was fantastic! Wow! Thanks again!”

I’m beaming 🙃

4. Will exchange curry for website help! #helpmegetoutWest 🙏🏻

Wholefoods catering

I’m doing wholefoods private catering. I impulsively posted on Bunz, and got some interest. On one hand, yaddayadda it’s food-oriented so probs unideal for ED healing, but also it’s honestly a mind-break and a job that 1) feels good to be of service, keeps me busy, and 2) I actually get out of my mind and in a state of flow bc I get to express my creativity through r cope curating and flavour experimentation, and also 3) I make food that I’m challenging myself with

Long term, not ideal as a career choice of mine, but certainly good experience for my future retreat centre, and setting intentions to get bum to BC and up mountains and in lakes n stuff.

Also this no laptop thing is annoying- FWP, but phone autocorrects are hilarious I almost want to uncorrect them for the lols.

Here’s an example of some of the first orders:


The others left me too tired to take pics…le sigh.

Hire me? The food’s yum, right Cor? 

Ps have also restarted meditating and focusing on breath: these two vids are worth it:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4Lb5L-VEm34&feature=share

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JeiEUMrPXkE&feature=share

Peanut Protein Sauce

I found a peanut protein powder (from Homesense) without 💩in it, so homade sauce for when working outside lunch not needing refrigeration.


Peanut Protein Sauce:

2 TBSP peanut Protein pow 

1-2 Tbsp sesame seeds

1 tbsp flaxseeds

Sriracha, soya, chicken stock (could use Pure Bone broth if you’re on the Best coast…or water, or almond/coconut milk)

Directions:

Dry toast seeds in pan. (I also toasted cumin seeds w it). Add PB pow, liquid. Mix. Yum.

I topped a salad w this and sesame oil dressing and peanuts.