I am not ok

My indoor bike trainer is on its last limbs, and today she broke.

I knew I shouldn’t have…but I am hungry for trails, for it so I ran. I regret it:


I’m tired of whining. But this sucks and I want to punch a hole through a wall.

I’m grateful

Ya humkshiy and that’s supposed to say bullshit fucking autocorrect you oi de of shut

I hobbled to a physio around the corner and the “Ottawa” somethingsomething test said no X-ray needed (thank you “God”? Or whatever). But I am so sad.

Life’s like “take a break”!

I feel like I needed to affirm, ok “I” here is huge “Ego”: needed to affirm my strength in running before I gave myself rest. Like, I’ve been watching all the runners in BC winning things and climbing mountains like this: (dloaded StumbleUpon on my phone to self-explore things that interest me- other than mindlessly scrolling on IG, or playing on Bumble…but: 

Should have cropped this but dontcareatm

Here’s the love I’m searching for (thanks StumbleUpon ❤️):


Goddamn it I gotta eat, man.

I am resting now. I am a strong runner, today showed that in my stride, bitchgotit. I don’t need to prove myself anymore. I just am, I am that I am ok Wayne dyer!?

May he rest peacefully with louise hay

Help help me help I can help myself.

Such a post. That is mknkey mind. But hey, no break in bone, soft tissue sprain, saystheottawasomethingsomethingtest

That’s ok

I guess I’ll work on my catering website now

I have a dietitian appointment check in soon and feel very much like not doing it but isn’t it the most important exactly now? My coping is totally food related- so anti healing – in this injury, ED voice is like “don’t eat as much”, but fuck that right? The cycle gotta end somewhere. Why not here and now? I’m going to have blood sausage for dinner still bc that shits good and I feel good after eating it. Too many salads is what my tum is saying.

Anyone want to drink some wine with me? Do some pranayama? I cookforyou

Rawr.

If anyone has any jokes, good videos to watch, toilet humour…dodge memes….I’m acceptingdonationsinformofcomedicrelief.

(Almost) Raw Curry Spinach Soup – Paleo

(Almost) Raw Paleo Spinach Soup
Raw Blender Sou

I tend to fall into a pattern where I find a recipe I like, and stick to it consistently for a bit of time.  I’m now in a phase where I’m trying to balance out my PH level, my body is in a higher state of acidity.  SO, I’m taking some steps to do this:

  • cutting out coffee (putain de merde)
  • limiting condiments (le sigh…salsa…)
  • including lots of cooked and raw veg (more cooked than raw)
  • adding wheatgrass (it’s ok, and can’t taste it when added to things like smoothie bowls and soups)
  • walking before meals to lower stress, and to focus on my breath
  • abdominal pranayama breathing to calm myself
  • reiki (mmmmhhhmmmm)

Here’s a recipe for a nice blender soup, you can make it in 5 minutes for lunch/dinner:

Ingredients:

2 handfuls Spinach
Palmful of Cottage cheese (can omit, or sub with coconut/egg protein/gelatine powder)
Splash of Almond milk
Splash of water
Splash of Olive juice
1 spoonful Nooch
Curry pow
Mustard seeds
Cumin seeds
Caraway seeds
Pepper
Smoked paprika
Soy sauce
Slice of fresh Ginger

Put it in a blender and whiz.

Suggested soundtracking:

Top with sliced avocado, drizzle of tahini, and enjoy 🙂