Ran yday trails headlamp pouring rain was nice but calf sore at end and foot and was afraid of bones & looking forward to seeing my physio today and she had to cancel bc her doggo strikethrough baby had emerg vet in van (feels for her!!!!).
No tests show that it’s a stress frac but my anxiety is v high not seeing her.
Morning swim had me feeling so drained and some rhomboid/radiating pec tightness (body’s warning sign).
Must ground myself and meet the needs that parts of me feel aren’t met. Must edge slowly towards the fear, beginning in the state of being in India.
Ugh feel like eating is just such an inconvenience. Life would be so much easier if we didn’t have to eat 😏
I feel so disconnected from my own hunger cues and am finding that I just go from not hungry to literally starving.
I have to reconnect with my body.
***Also: I had an intense workout on the stairmonster today and actually scared myself at my strength and ability to override exhaustion. In contrast, yesterday was an easy swim and my standard AM Bike. Honestly, I felt ill all day today whereas I felt energized yesterday. My body didn’t well-tolerate the high cortisol of today and I’m glad I recognized it. Tomorrow will be easy. ***